EMBRACING NEW BEGINNINGS
“Don’t look so sad, it’s not so bad, you know.
It’s just another night. That’s all it is.”
Above was an excerpt from Barry Manilow’s ever-sentimental New Year song that’s been LSSing in my mind for over a week since the new year ushered in. Call me on sentimental mode but maybe that’s true-I’ve been pondering a lot and sort of making an assessment of how my life went for the last 12 months. Perhaps a big factor to this sort of being somewhat emotional and quite sentimental, are pregnancy hormones running in my system for last 17 weeks. The last time I felt something like this was at the closing of year 2003, when I was pregnant with Nico.
I’ve been idle for the last two months and how it was obviously reflected in this online journal was the same as in real life. With threats of almost loosing the baby, frequent bleedings and spottings, plus the monstrous attack of Hyperemesis Gravidarum (just imagine puking all day long with nothing left in your tummy but the blandest lugaw ever and plain crackers) in my system, I had no other choice but to remain idle until I had word from my doctor that I can already move. It’s an experience I’m thankful I was able to survive and no words can best describe how difficult it was. Perhaps the bestest way I can tell you was that from 104 pounds, I lost about 14 altogether during the first 16 weeks.
I’ve missed so many daily activities I used to do, the mommy chores especially. I missed accompanying my son in his therapy sessions, I missed so many activities of my son in school and taking his pictures, I missed cooking in the kitchen, I missed doing the housechores, I missed important family gatherings (especially that my youngest brother whom we missed for years was home at my Mom’s for three weeks), I missed putting up our Christmas tree and decorations, I missed shopping for Christmas gifts, and not to mention, I missed my online and offline friends with whom I thank so sincerely for their continued prayers for my recovery.
And God indeed heard all our prayers. A couple of days before Christmas, the baby and I are both doing well. Short to say, I’m back to regular programming. At the very least, I was able to hear my son and his classmates as they visit our home for some joyous caroling before the school Christmas break; I was able join a few family and friends’ gatherings and everything that’s left for the holidays to be celebrated. And mind you, I devoured and spoiled myself to eating and eating and more eating, with no more puking. Boy, I was in heaven!
And so on New Year’s Eve, in the warm company of Hubby and Nico, while waiting for midnight to strike, the sentimental in me started being nostalgic remembering all that has happened the past year. The journey to seeing the light at the end of the dark tunnel with Hubby, the journey into the unknown with my son, the little and big victories, the good and bad news, the petty and not so big deal things, and most especially the gift of anticipating another addition in our family—all of these, I will forever be thankful and treasure in my heart. The past year, no matter how I had intended to live blissfully, yet, was never perfected. There are so many lessons I’ve learned and from these rich and valuable experiences, together with the people so dear to me, I will move forward and be a better me this 2009. *cross fingers*
These said, I’d say, I’m pretty ready to embrace new beginnings. 
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PS. From my Family to yours, A Happy, Happy New Year! Wishing you a bountiful of blessings from Above!
19 responses so far
Hi! I’m glad to hear you’re doing okay. Stay healthy for the baby. Happy New Year to you and your family. All the best for 2009!
thanks for the well wishes Techa! and a Happy, happy new year to you and your family too!
Happy New Year Feng and to your family
and WELCOME BACK!
thanks Mare! and I’ll be seeing you soon!
Feng, happy new year to you and to your family! I’m happy you’re ok. Take care of yourself and that little creature inside. Wish you both well. Kumain ka pa ng kumain–healthy and good food! ‘ want to see you na… miss you girl! Regards to jun and nico. Mwah!
hi Dumai! super thank you for the well wishes.
uy, happy new year din sa inyo! i know you’re quite occupied making your new home more homely, so hindi ka muna namin aabalahin nina Minoe and Weng. but soon as you’re ok, magkita kita naman tayo. it’s been a while since we last saw each other. miss you too! mwuah!
Hi Feng. It’s wonderful to hear from you. I miss you!
Happy New Year! I’m happy to know that you’re doing much better now. Glad that you’re able to enjoy the food now and no more frequent visits to the bathroom.
When I was pregnant with Yohan I also lost weight during my first trimester because of “morning sickness” that happened several times a day. I also had to go on bed rest during the 1st and 2nd trimester. Things became better towards the end of my second trimester.
I wish you all the best in 2009. May you have a safe and healthy pregnancy. Kisses to Nico. God bless.
Hello Rach! I missed you too and our mommy blog friends as well. I haven’t catch up with my visits and blog reads though, but I hope to visit you all very soooon!
My wishes of continued good health, and all the best for you and your family this 2009, Rach! Happy, happy new year!
Glad to have you back, Feng!! Its wonderful to know that you have successfully hurdled the hard part of your pregnancy. I’m so looking forward to seeing you soon. All of us at FMB miss you so much!!
Happy New Year and best wishes
Hi Cookie. Happy, happy New Year to you too!!!!
And I soooooo missed you too and the FMB Mommies as well.
I hope to see you all really soon. missed our chickahans. 
feng, i’m really glad to hear you and the little one are ok. i remember we ran into each other very briefly .. di na nasundan yun. anyway, a blessed new year to the family!
thanks Aloi! A happy happy new year to you as well!!! kumusta naman si Dui? I’m sure my little dalagita ka na.
onga. I remembered that accidental bump sa MRT. wrong timing lang at super on the rush ako nun. hindi tuloy tayo nakapag kumustahan kahit konti man lang.
I am so glad to finally read a post from you Feng, which means you and your baby are both ok!
Going through those difficulty must have been hard but knowing you, I know you will see something positive out of this and I know that you will also find wisdom that will guide you to be a better mom than you already are
I wish you and yours the best for 2009
Hi T.Julie! and I’m glad to being back at my old self again.
haven’t seen you for so long. kahit sa therapy center, hindi pa ako nakakapunta ulit since the start of the year. missed you much. sana magkita tayo really soon.
Happy happy New Year TJ! and I wish you all best this 2009. May all that you plan to do this year pushes through.
I had a similar experience when I was pregnant with B.boy, Feng. I’m glad to hear that you are doing fine. Congrats on the baby!
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Thanks for sharing Feng! Have a very happy and healthy New Year!
hi feng! nice to see you back online. keep well and stay healthy!
i knew there was something wrong when i didnt see any update here. glad that you finally got out of that difficulty. wishing you safe and healthy pregnancy for 2009. all that experience will be all forgotten, im sure, when the baby’s finally there. hugs to you and nico. life wont be the same when bunso’s there, take it from me hehe, just had time bloghopping now, kyla’s demanding more attention than louna, and the jealous ate is demanding attention too.. balance balance!
I’m super glad you’re all okay.
Take it easy.