AFTER SEEING THE TWO RED LINES…
Hello, hello. I know, I’ve been offline for the past weeks without much advance notice. What happened to me?
Fact is, I am very sick and on complete bedrest, yet I am happy. I’ve been tired and exhausted vomiting and experiencing nausea most of the day (and night) but is much excited about the coming months. My hormones are going crazy, my moods are volatile and my body is ever changing. All of these—because I am pregnant. 
Am on my 8th week to be more exact.
After seeing the two red lines in a pregnancy test kit two days before the 18th of October which was my 32nd birthday, I’ve anticipated the coming days and weeks will never be the same. And true enough, I was right.
All of a sudden, I can’t seem to function in the kitchen, not even cook a decent meal. The smell of boiling rice or garlic being sauteed or something being fried bring me nothing but goosebumps and makes me want to gag the sink all the time. Eating has been an ordeal. Hubby had to make enough convincing just as so I would eat. I just don’t seem to have the appetite for food. And after getting little food down and settled in my stomach, the next thing I knew, I was gagging the sink again with all the food I ate flushed down the drain. :( On some rare lucky days, I can manage keeping my food down but for most part of this pregnancy so far, gagging the sink has been a favorite past time.
Even if I haven’t done anything the entire day but stay in a little corner, lay down and nap and sleep, still, I feel very exhausted and drained. Nausea and vomiting perhaps were costing me much energy. Added to that are frequent lower abdominal pains I am feeling as if I’m having menstrual cramps. Cross fingers, but I hope things wouldn’t get worst to Hyperemesis Gravidarum which I unfortunately experienced while carrying Nico. It was really difficult. Pang telenovela ang drama.
Yet, I am hanging on. Two weeks ago when I first had a glimpse of the little human being growing inside my tummy and being able to hear his/her heartbeat in an ultrasound machine, I realized I have to survive and carry on each and everyday that the good Lord is giving me. No matter how difficult it is, I have to diligently drink my meds, I have to motivate myself to eat, I have to cope so that I could properly nourish the baby.
I really hope things will get better and then I’ll be my old self again. Days and weeks and months will pass, and before I knew it, I’ll be a Mom for the second time. :) Can’t wait for June 16 of next year. Can’t wait for that one sweet day.
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I am so happy for you Feng! What a nice birthday gift. Hope you feel better as the early months wear off.
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Hi! Congrats for the pregnancy! I do have the same difficulty sa paglilihi. Parehong pareho nang sayo. I truly understand what you’re going through, and I empathize. Hang in there. The baby is all worth it! ((hugs))
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Wooohooo congrats Feng!!!
Had H.G. din with this 2nd pregnancy and I know telling you it will go away soon is not much help, and the standard advice (eat crackers before getting up in the morning, avoid oily and spicy food) won’t help either because it’s so much worse than normal pregnancy nausea! Vent here if it helps. Most of my blog posts in June and July of this year were about how sucky I felt, parang telenovela talaga! I think I had to file about 10 sick days because I just didn’t have the energy to work. Haay the sacrifices we women have to make. Hang in there!
hi feng, CONGRATS!!! well, looks like the preggy bug has finally gotten into you and it seems both our prayers are answered. i’m now heading towards the last trimester and medyo mabigat na…i hope you’ll have a safe and smooth journey to pregnancy ahead. keep us posted
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Hello Feng. I’m happy that you’re expecting another baby. That’s the perfect birthday gift.
When I was pregnant with Yohan I also had to go on bed rest. For the first trimester, I had difficulty taking in food. I lost weight. I was also sensitive to all kinds of smell. Things got better on the second trimester.
I hope that soon you’ll overcome the nausea and the cramps. I’ll pray for you and the little baby inside of you. God bless my friend.
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i know it’s quite an ordeal especially during the 1st 3 months. nevertheless, this is really great news about your family!
i wish you a really healthy and happy pregnancy. 
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FENG!!!! I’m glad you’re back
Don’t worry, all will be well in the coming days…I’m very sure of that. And all these hardships are going to be well worth it. We miss you very much and would very much like to see you soon. Take care of yourself, my dear…and you know that you can count on your FMB family all the time 
BTW, sana sa June 22 na lang para kaberdey ko ang anghel mo
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So happy for you sis! At naunahan nya talaga ako haha! Kinarir mo no? Joke!
Take care! *kisses to Nico*
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hi feng! naku, ganyan din ako nung 2nd pregnancy ko, nakakaloka. super nose!
im so happy and excited for you. ingat ka lang dyan, alagaan ang sarili, iwas stress and stay beautiful.
I miss you Feng
Pero ok lang as long as you have your rest and you and your baby both remain healthy, kahit di tayo magkita for a while.
Take everything easy and soon you will be better.
wow, feng. congrats! get a lot of rest and don’t tax yourself too much. at sana mahawaan mo din ako, he he he.
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feng!!! congratulations! i’m so happy for you and your hubby and for soon to be kuya nico! hang in there. i hope you get past all the troublesome symptoms of pregnancy soon. take care, try to eat well and God bless! mmmwah!
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congratulations feng! so happy for you! take care!
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*hug, hug and another hug* i’m so happy for you feng! wow, you’ll be a mom-of-two na din.. take care always, i think christianne had the same experience at the start of her pregnancy, you could probably ask her for advice.. take care, ulit..
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Feng and Jun, congrats again.. ingats palagi
when you found out that im pregnant almost two months ago, gusto mong sumabay actually pati yung isa kong friend gusto rin sumabay, kaso iba nangyari diba. ngayon pareho na kayong preggy, ako naman ang nainggit hehe.. ingat palagi, i miss our long conversation over the phone inshort tsismisan haha.. when i have free time, visit kami ni andre jan. 
nalungkot ako for myself, ndi na tayo sabay
oopss i know, matatagalan bago ka makapag online ulit, sige itetext kita
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yay! congratulations! You take good care of yourself ok?
Oh wow, congratulations
Feng and Jun congrats!!
bat nawala unang post ko? hehe may konting drama pa man din yon lol.. anyway, ingat palagi..
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awww. congrats on your pregnancy!
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congratulations!!! i too had a hard time with my 2nd pregnancy.. i even cry sometimes at night because it really made me feel bad physically. but fortunately, that too shall pass xD mine did after the 4th month.
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That’s certainly a wonderful addition to your family. Congratulations! I hope you’ll soon get over the nausea and the cramps.
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wow, congrats feng
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Congratulations Feng!!!!! I am so happy for you!
When I was pregnant, I couldn’t stand the smell of fried fish. Yuck!!!!
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Hi feng! How is the pregnancy going? I hope you are doing and feeling much better… Just dropping by, namimiss ko na plurks mo eh.
Hugs~ Take care ha.
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Feng and Jun congrats! Ingat palagi especially in your first semester coz ilang years din ang gap nila Nico parang nanganganay ka narin yan. Like me 6 years ang gap Gelo is turning 7 on may 20 while my bunso is turning 1 this coming Feb. 4. Tama nga sabi mo last tayo nagkita dapat mabuntis ka narin like me so God hear your wish.
YEHEY!!!
Congrats, congrats… I am so happy for you. Hang in there. I’m sure you’ll ride this out.
Congratulations, Feng! Oh, I know the feeling. Mahirap din ako maglihi. That’s why I only have two. Take care of yourself always.
congrats dear feng, naki chismis ako dun kay julie, hahaha
merry christmas, too!
june 16 is my mom’s bday. and yes, am a june kid as with my hubby, too. magiging masayahing bata yan, kaya lang makulit, hahaha
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Hi Feng. I miss you. Hope you’re doing well.
Hope you had a wonderful Christmas celebration. Wishing you a promising New Year.
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