AFTER SEEING THE TWO RED LINES…
Hello, hello. I know, I’ve been offline for the past weeks without much advance notice. What happened to me?
Fact is, I am very sick and on complete bedrest, yet I am happy. I’ve been tired and exhausted vomiting and experiencing nausea most of the day (and night) but is much excited about the coming months. My hormones are going crazy, my moods are volatile and my body is ever changing. All of these—because I am pregnant. 
Am on my 8th week to be more exact.
After seeing the two red lines in a pregnancy test kit two days before the 18th of October which was my 32nd birthday, I’ve anticipated the coming days and weeks will never be the same. And true enough, I was right.
All of a sudden, I can’t seem to function in the kitchen, not even cook a decent meal. The smell of boiling rice or garlic being sauteed or something being fried bring me nothing but goosebumps and makes me want to gag the sink all the time. Eating has been an ordeal. Hubby had to make enough convincing just as so I would eat. I just don’t seem to have the appetite for food. And after getting little food down and settled in my stomach, the next thing I knew, I was gagging the sink again with all the food I ate flushed down the drain. :( On some rare lucky days, I can manage keeping my food down but for most part of this pregnancy so far, gagging the sink has been a favorite past time.
Even if I haven’t done anything the entire day but stay in a little corner, lay down and nap and sleep, still, I feel very exhausted and drained. Nausea and vomiting perhaps were costing me much energy. Added to that are frequent lower abdominal pains I am feeling as if I’m having menstrual cramps. Cross fingers, but I hope things wouldn’t get worst to Hyperemesis Gravidarum which I unfortunately experienced while carrying Nico. It was really difficult. Pang telenovela ang drama.
Yet, I am hanging on. Two weeks ago when I first had a glimpse of the little human being growing inside my tummy and being able to hear his/her heartbeat in an ultrasound machine, I realized I have to survive and carry on each and everyday that the good Lord is giving me. No matter how difficult it is, I have to diligently drink my meds, I have to motivate myself to eat, I have to cope so that I could properly nourish the baby.
I really hope things will get better and then I’ll be my old self again. Days and weeks and months will pass, and before I knew it, I’ll be a Mom for the second time. :) Can’t wait for June 16 of next year. Can’t wait for that one sweet day.
