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Feng on Apr 2nd 2008 at 12:37 am Nico's Milestones, The Mommy-Heart in Me

TO DEAR NICO, ON YOUR 4TH BDAY

[It’s April Fool’s yesterday alright, but not really for the Mommy me. ;) Yesterday’s my most treasured day of all, as it is this one memorable day that our lives were blessed with a little boy named Nicolas. Everytime this day approaches, I can’t help but be nostalgic. It’s been four years, and the memories were still fresh as to how everything came to be. Allow me to share this love letter for my Little Boy. For the world to know, how much I love him ;) ]

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My Dearest Nico,

It amazes me to think that it’s been four happiest years since we were graciously blessed by God in your being. Count to think of it, it seems such a short time. You were a tiny wee baby then (literally, as your preemie fragile body can very well fit a shoe box at birth) and now, here you are–all grown up!

Time flies so fast, isn’t it? I can’t even exactly remember how painful it was to go under labor, or the manner I’ve terribly shiver after the anesthesia had subsided after a scary emergency Caesarian section. All that’s very vivid to me, were mixed emotions I’ve felt the moment I became conscious and awakened by your innocent cries. They’re truly music to my ears because finally, I came to meet you in person after the long eight months of waiting.

I’ve been reading quite a lot even before you came, on proper childcare, on parenting and what have yous. I didn’t imagine though it will be that one tough job that I’ve thought all along, I was never prepared. Never enough to be ready especially when medical experts broke the news you had heart issues. The hole was 2.7mm, and I was deeply crying in tears for so long.

But you moved me. And taught me that more than childcare and parenting resources or whatever medical experts say, a Mom’s instinct is more than enough in caring for you, in loving you.

I’ve said this to you many times before, but I’d say it again: Sometimes Dad and I terribly misses the Little Baby that we used to carry so lightly onto our arms and the smell of milk curdles and baby powder and oil onto a newborn’s bare skin. And often times, the Mommy-heart in me wished you’d just stop growing so I can still enjoy you as you are. But I know very well you can’t, it’s inevitable that you grow.

So as your journey through life and spread your wings, must I say that I, together with Dada, will always be here to guide you in every way we can.

I love you Son. Happy, happy Birthday.

Much love,
Mommy

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[Here’s sharing a few pics of Nico’s little birthday treat yesterday. I tagged him along to my Office yesterday, per his request. Heehee. As usual, bored daw kasi sya sa bahay! ;)

We’ll be having a simple and intimate celebration this coming long weekend though. But initially, for yesterday, it was kicked off that way–at sa Office ko pa talaga! And why not? Associates in the organization where I’m working were as important too. Heehee. Sila lang naman ang nag-tyaga na maghalukay kung saan-saan at bumili-bili ng mga pagkaing pinaglilihihan ko noon at ang mga taong tumulong at sumporta sa akin habang ako’y pregnant.]


Ayan, hanggang sa opisina, Zuma pa rin. Heehee. Taken at Tito Jheric’s work station.

25 responses so far

25 Comments

  1. Thet on 02.04.2008 at 01:53 (Reply)

    Dearest Nico,

    We haven’t met yet but you’re one lucky kid! For your Daddy and Mommy loves you very much! Pag laki mo ikwento ko sayo how proud your mom is sa mga milestones mo. Or better yet read your mom’s blog! hehehe…

    Happy 4th Birthday sweetie!

    Love,
    Tita Thet & Sofia

    p.s.
    sarap naman ng cake at spaghetti!! ;)
    Thet’s last blog post..blog name

  2. Kongkong622 on 02.04.2008 at 09:37 (Reply)

    Our warmest Birthday greetings to Nico :)

    Adi sends her warmest too :)
    Kongkong622’s last blog post..Princesses For A Day

  3. Feng on 02.04.2008 at 11:15 (Reply)

    Hi Thet! heehee, sana nga paglaki ni Nico, nandito pa rin ang Blog na ito.

    thanks for the greeting. in a few days, si Iya naman ang mag be birthday! Advance happy happy birthday to the Little Girl! mwuah!

    PS. heehee, ang spag, for long life; and the cake, for more sweetness all throughout the year.

    PS. 2 — I’ve recovered your comment in Spam. buti na lang nasumpungan kong isa-isahin today. Most of the time kasi, dine-delete all ko lang. hay, I’m trying to figure out why.

  4. Feng on 02.04.2008 at 11:17 (Reply)

    thanks Cookie. he’ll be delighted to know a greeting from you, and most especially from adorable Adi. :)

  5. lady cess on 03.04.2008 at 11:14 (Reply)

    aba, nico, penge cake! happy birthday cutie!

  6. michellie on 03.04.2008 at 19:37 (Reply)

    happy birthday inaanak!.. saan istapegghi ko? hehehe..
    lapit na rin si andre, hayy parang kelan lang…
    sabay ulit tayo feng ha, sana girl na next time ;)

    love ninang xoxo

  7. michellie on 03.04.2008 at 19:41 (Reply)

    late lang post ko, pero nauna naman akong bumati :p

  8. gail on 03.04.2008 at 20:00 (Reply)

    happy birthday nico!

  9. Weng on 05.04.2008 at 01:28 (Reply)

    feng! belated happy birthday to nico! i’m so sorry for the late greeting. :( nico dear, may you continue to bring so much joy to your mommy and daddy and may you grow up to be a fine young man. God bless you always, sweetie! :)

    ang bilis ng panahon ano?! parang kailan lang ang baby pa nila tapos ngayon…! *sigh* have a fun long weekend with your family, feng! hugs! :D
    Weng’s last blog post..LP #1: Bilog

  10. Feng on 05.04.2008 at 11:19 (Reply)

    Mommy Cess, nahuli ka ng paghingi. ubos na! heehee. thanks for the greeting Cess.

  11. Feng on 05.04.2008 at 11:21 (Reply)

    hi Ninang Mich. :) eh naku, naubos agad ang istapegi! salamat sa pagbati! ah eh, ang regalo ko Ninang? heehee.

    in six months time, si Andre naman. time flies so fast talaga ano?

    sabihin mo lang kung kelan yung second, at sasabayan kita! :)

  12. Feng on 05.04.2008 at 11:22 (Reply)

    thanks Mommy Gail. :)

  13. Feng on 05.04.2008 at 11:25 (Reply)

    hi Weng. salamat sa pagbati at sa well wishes! :) April pa din naman, hindi ka pa late!

    ay sinabi mo, time flies really really fast. I’m sure, you feel the same way for Abby!

    Have a happy weekend as well, Weng. and my tight hugs back to you! :)

  14. analyse on 05.04.2008 at 23:08 (Reply)

    time flies! enjoy every moment. wow, you just (or again, because i always think about that at the moment) reminded me that babies don’t stay babies all their life… happy birthday nico..

    analyse’s last blog post..Confort de Vie II

  15. Feng on 06.04.2008 at 23:39 (Reply)

    hi Analyse. thanks for that. :) ay sinabi mo pa, ambilis ng panahon! parang kelan lang…

  16. Wenchie on 07.04.2008 at 22:41 (Reply)

    Hi Feng, belated Happy Birthday to Nico. I wish him more blessings…

    Wenchie’s last blog post..Going Up Day/ Pio’s Graduation Day

  17. KK aka Tina on 08.04.2008 at 08:50 (Reply)

    Happy 4th Birthday Nico! You are so lucky to have a daddy and Mommy Feng who loves you.

    KK aka Tina’s last blog post..Give like a Fortune 500

  18. Feng on 08.04.2008 at 18:29 (Reply)

    thanks Wenchie for the well wishes. :)

  19. Feng on 08.04.2008 at 18:29 (Reply)

    thanks Tina. and we’re blessed as well to have him in our lives. naks!

  20. GreyMom on 09.04.2008 at 23:21 (Reply)

    Aaaaww, bating panimula palang teary eyed na agad ako. Kakatouch naman! Happy bday to Nico kamo. Parang super sarap ang cake!!!!

    GreyMom’s last blog post..PB&J Elvis Style

  21. julie on 09.04.2008 at 23:29 (Reply)

    Dear Nico,

    Belated Happy Birthday. You have grown up to be more than what your parents expected. You have healed Mommy and Daddy’s hurts and pains when you were still a baby. Their tears of pains became tears of joys.

    You are fortunate to have them as parents such as they too are fortunate to have you in their lives.

    be good, Nico :)

    Tita Julie

    julie’s last blog post..WordPress 2.5

  22. Rach (Heart of Rachel) on 10.04.2008 at 15:10 (Reply)

    Belated Happy Birthday Nico. It’s wonderful to know that you bring joy and meaning to the lives of the people around you. God bless.

    Rach (Heart of Rachel)’s last blog post..Buying a Used Car

  23. Feng on 11.04.2008 at 13:01 (Reply)

    hahaha, babaw ng luha nating mga Nanay noh, Greymom. salamat sa pagbati! :)

  24. Feng on 11.04.2008 at 13:01 (Reply)

    thanks for that T.Julie. matutuwa yun, pag nabasa letter mo for him. :)

  25. Feng on 11.04.2008 at 13:03 (Reply)

    thanks for the greeting Rach. don’t we Moms just adore our kids a hundred percent? or even more pa nga.

    PS. this comment too was classified as spam. sigh.

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