HAVE I CAUGHT THE PREGNANCY FEVER?
(Foreword: This is exclusively girl’s talk. So if you’re not, better close this tab because I bet you wouldn’t be able to relate pretty well. 
Well, not unless you’re a Dad or a husband or an Ob-gyne.)
Above’s a pregnancy test kit, alright. And yes, I’ve taken the test just this morning. The month of March will end tomorrow and I’ve been waiting for my “time of the month” as early as the first week, but still no visitor. I haven’t been suspecting that I’m pregnant though as I see no signs at all. No breast tenderness, no little bits of powder substance that goes along with the urine when I pee, no metallic taste in the food that I eat, no morning sickness–nothing at all.
But by around 10 in the morning yesterday, I was gagging the sink really hard. I want to get out something in my digestive system (the food that I ate at breakfast probably) that I spend a couple of hours just vomiting and vomiting. I feel kinda dizzy too in between nauseas, and as a way to console myself, I bloghopped and visited Friendster (heehee, yan ang mga major ways ko of theraphy–connecting with friends) a little just to shift my attention and let the weird feeling out of my system.
So I hopped on Blogfriend’s journals. And guess what? Latest updates I’ve read got me thinking: is there a pregnancy fever or something? Last month, my gracious webhost Amore announced her pregnancy to Baby No. 2. Then last week, Mommy Analyse, este, si Ate Louna pala, reported the good news that she’ll be an Ate soon as her Mom is expecting by September of this year too. When I logged in to my Friendster account, there, I saw a baby ticker widget in MeAnn’s profile (the Dubai-based friend of mine and Hubby) that says she’s on her 15th week already! And just yesterday, I’ve learned through Kelly that two of her Blogfriends as well have been visited by the stork.
But that’s not all. As I hopped over at Thet’s latest posts yesterday, I was happy and giddy and excited to learn she is expecting as well. Nung una pa nga, hindi ko agad na gets, kasi naman dalawa yung bagong posts. The first that I’ve read was a blast from the past regarding how she knew she was pregnant with her daughter Iya. And I’ve even commented na baka she’s expecting kaya ganun. And when I opened the post previous to that, true enough, she was indeed expecting! 
And that all the more convinced me to try the test myself. Why? First off, Thet’s Iya and my Nico is almost of the same ages, Nico was just days apart. And I’m not sure if this goes with other Mommies as well, but I’m one of those who compare notes with Moms whose sons’ or daughters’ ages are close as mine. Kinda weird but that’s sort of my way to gauge or convince myself to think of having another baby. And second, honestly, sobrang nainggit ako. So I think, that adds to the urge to finally try the pregnancy test myself.
And the result…
Negative still. 
Kinda surprising because for the last 10 months, my cycles were really regular. I suspected it must be my polycystic ovaries acting up again, the reason for the delay of the monthly period. And my nauseaic-feeling that morning, I suspected it has something to do with the chips I ate immediately after breakfast. Yan, kasi, sobrang katakawan ko. Heehee.
But seriously, all I reacted when I saw just the single red line was a deep sigh. Weird feeling if you can call it, but that’s what I’ve felt. Hubby and I were contemplating on having another addition in the family, but not “seriously working on it” and not that soon. Maybe because, we’re not really decided 100 percent just yet. Honestly, I kinda worry everytime my period hasn’t come yet. But when I had false alarms and got negative results in tests, I really feel sad. Ang gulo, diba? Don’t know why.
Anyway, I ought to think that maybe, it’s not yet the right time. And who knows? Maybe next month, or perhaps, if God willing, baka next week lang, positive na! Heehee. But seriously, I have to believe there’s a more meaningful reason to be pregnant and all (other than the pregnancy fever and the excitement I feel for Mommy friends expecting), just as meaningful and as purposeful the very day we knew we’re pregnant with Nico.
For now, I have to believe that God loudly speaks to me that Nico is more than enough to fill our lives with so much happiness and completeness.
Ang anak kong napakabait…lalo na pag tulog.
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ay talaga naman hindi nawala ang ngiti ko habang nagbabasa at grabe sa suspense!! but… like what you said we’ll never know baka biglang mag positive yan in a few days! hahaha… i know what you meant when you said you felt relieved but sad at the same time
kasi nga you feel you’re not ready but at the same time if naging positive naman yan mawawala lahat ng doubts…
sana maging positive pa din para magka age ulit ang 2nd babies natin!! hehehe.. pero pag hindi, it’s probably not time yet. Kailangan daw i ready muna si Nico
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hi Thet!
ang bilis mag comment! matutulog na sana ako eh, biglang, may alert sa mail box to moderate a comment, heehee.
hahaha, pasensya na sa pagka suspense. alam mo naman ako, mahilig sa pa suspense. kaya, lagi akong na to toks ni Hubby eh, yan ang gawain ko. kaya nga eh, too early to tell, pero siguro, punta na rin ako sa Ob-gyne ko. tagal ko na rin kasing di nakabisita at kahit papsmear lang eh di ko pa na comply. heehee, bad ko noh?
onga, tayong mga Mommies, nagkakaintindihan na dun sa mixed emotions sa mga moments na ganito. yung para bang hoping ka na positive pero on the other thought, baka sana negative muna, dahil may doubts ka pa. hay naku, ang weird natin, diba?
anyway, just as I’ve said, I’m praying for your healthy and happy pregnancy Thet.
Hi Feng. I got really excited with your post. I think I skipped a few lines sa sobrang excited ko.
I’m sure the right time will come for Nico to be “upgraded” as “Kuya” in the family. I hope it will be soon.
Good night.
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hi Rach.
naku, pasensya ka na, I hope I didn’t make your adrenalins to rush too much. or else, mahirap matulog. heehee.
oo nga, siguro, in God’s perfect time, he will bless Nico with a baby sister or brother.
Good night din sa yo.
hi feng.. kala ko positive na.. hihihi
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hi Amore. heehee, kala ko rin eh, feel na feel ko pa naman yang ka duduwal. anuba yun?
ingat ka lagi, Amore. a big no no sa too much stress.
asus, minadali ko pa naman ang basa ko till i saw the negative sign pix.. sabi ko pa naman, ayan, me kasabay na baby ko.. just like you, i follow babies of the same age as louna.. deye and annika are at the same age range, bestfriends ni louna sa bloghopping yan hehe..
darating din yan.. ako naman, i had mixed emotions, tho we were thinking of having the second, i thought it was too soon when i learned i was preggy, mainly because i was thinking about work.. frenchguy’s even complaining na i’m not that excited daw with this baby compared to louna.. but when i saw the baby during my last visit at the gyneco, na-excite na din ako, now, feel na feel ko na ulit maging nanay hehe..
goodluck to you..
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baka too early pa. Nico is so cute. Sometimes I wished my 2 girls age gap wasn’t too near. I want to enjoy each one of them as babies. So wehn i had two of them, it seemed I had two babies.
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Baka naman it’s too early pa to test. Naku, mag-test ka ulit next week. Aabangan ko yan
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hi Analyse!
alam mo bang while I’m waiting for around 1-2 minutes for the test to be finished, I’m really expecting the two lines! kaya nung natapos na ang 2 minutes or so, hindi talaga ako makapaniwala na negative.
I can exactly understand how you felt. mixed emotions naman talaga ang mararamdaman mo when you see the two red lines. when you set your self not seeing the stork too soon, lalo na if you have plans way ahead, hindi maiiwasan to feel a bit sad. natural lang yun. but then again, pag nag sink in na deep within you na “this is it”, all you can feel are nothing but excitement and happiness.
I’m praying for your healthy and safe pregnancy Analyse.
hi Noemi. Hubby also commented the same, too early to tell. that’s why I’m going to my doc just because….
Lauren and Marinelle looked like twins at first, especially if you see them both for the first time.
most would prefer for an ideal age gap of birthing, say 2-3 years. but on the other thought, may point din naman yung nagsasabi na maganda rin kung magkasunod lang. that way, isang hirap na lang.
hi Cookie. hahaha, hindi lang ako mag te test, talagang sasadyain ko ang Ob-gyne para lang dyan. high time na rin to consult one, tagal ko nang hindi nakabisita.
haha pareho pala tayo ngayon, kala din namin may kasunod na si andre.. false alarm lang pala.. nakakainis no, nawala yung excitement natin once na dumating na ang period
this is exciting feng…keep us posted ha. ako rin, i wish to be contaminated by this pregnancy fever. it’s been 5 years, haayyy
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hi Mich!
hahaha, I exactly knew what you meant there! as we’ve chatted over the phone this morning, weird talaga ang feeling noh? ay teka pala, di ba may usapan tayo dati na sabay tayo with the 2nd? heehee, ang tagal na nun, hanggang ngayon, di pa rin natuloy.
hi Mhalou
exciting and thrilling talaga! I’ll surely keep you posted.
hala, at gusto mo na din makisabay sa preggy fever. 5 years is definitely loooonggg na rin. sige, goodluck sa atin.
Hehehe! I was holding my breath all along.
Andami ko rin kasing friends na buntis. Baby boom na naman.
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Hi Feng, I had the same experience once upon a time. At ganyan na ganyan din ang emotions ko. Hoping and dreading the thought at the same time. Gulo noh?
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akala ko buntis ka na din!
“Honestly, I kinda worry everytime my period hasn’t come yet. But when I had false alarms and got negative results in tests, I really feel sad.” –> this was exactly how i felt before i became pregnant with manu! nung first test, nag-negative ako. na-sad ako nun. kaya nung 2nd time i took the test and the results came back positive, i was mega excited! ang sarap ng feeling nun ano, feng? parang gusto ko ulit maramdaman yun (ayayay!!!
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waaahh
akala ko pa naman dagdag na! anyway, try and try di ba? have fun while doing it, sempre
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feng! grabe, pwedeng pwede kang maging writer ng suspense thriller! if this were a book, super page-turner talaga, he he. been trying hard for that second baby pero wala rin…
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hi Nice.
so ngayon, relieved ka na. nakahinga ka na ng maluwag. agree, feeling baby-bearing season yata nowadays. daming buntis!
Greymom, hello! hahaha, sinabi mo pa! ang weird sa feeling na yan, kahit napagdaan mo na dati, hindi mo pa rin ma explain in words ang feeling.
ayayay Kelly, baka mag dilang angel ka, sige ka! heehee, ang weird diba?
I will set an appointment with my Ob-gyne pa lang, just to be sure.
hi Raq.
yay, yan ang the best advice mula sa isang expert. heehee. sige, wish us luck.
hahaha, Anna, page turner ba? but I bet nothing could be more suspense than seeing the baby in an ultrasound monitor. heehee.
trying and trying ka din? naku, eh, goodluck sa atin.
Kala ko positive na
Siyempre, ooops, mamaya na ang the rest of the post, I went to the end agad. All in God’s time Feng. AT sabi ko na nga ba si Nico yung background dun sa photo ng kit mo with the single red line.
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hi feng… di bale Im sure the second will come. The fun part is in the “trying” naman di ba?
Am bloghopping with kelvin on my lap.. Sabi nya sa picture ni Nico “hey that’s my friend”
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i swear to God i know exactly how you feel when you saw that one line. buti nga ikaw sigh lang, ako noon, napaiyak, kasi feel na feel ko na talaga. anyway, i got pregnant months after that, and that;s the story of my baby girl
hi feng! minadali ko rin ang pagbabasa ng post mo kasi nga gusto ko na agad malaman kung ano ang result!
in God’s time and when you, your hubby and nico are really really ready, i’m sure you will get your heart’s desire to have another baby. 
and i can already how that is going to be just plain sweet. 
God bless!
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hi Teacher Julie
eh ako rin, feeling ko, positive talaga, tas hindi pala 
hahaha, sobrang haba ko kasi mag post eh noh? kaya ayan, jump ka na agad sa result syempre.
hi Auee!
you said it right! no pressures at all, just keep on trying and trying. you’ll surely be one the first to know when it’s positive na!
smart Kelvin. haha, si Nico naman, pag katabi ko sa compu, ang lagi nyang tanong: Mommy, blog ka? haha.
Cess, ganyan yata siguro tayong mga babae ano? eh naku, pag ganyan na feel na feel mo na tas hindi pa pala yun, talaga naman mapapaiyak ka. eh knowing you, iyakin ka kasii talaga. haha!
anyway, there’s nothing wrong with trying and trying naman diba? heehee.
hi Weng! in God’s perfect time, ika nga. having another addition to the family has been a dilemma for so many months (or years na din ata?) especially if you’re still enjoying rearing the first born.
you have a Happy weekend Weng!
Fenggay..pregnancy fever na nga. but dont worry, you’ll catch it too in time. don’t try too hard, para di kayo ma harass, sabi nila pag ‘next’ babies, it’ll really take you like a couple of tries before you get ‘infected with the fever’. good for the kids magkaron ng sibling (in my opinion) they learn some things from their siblings na di nila matututunan from us–over protective moms..hehe..balitaan mo kami ha…
hi Mare! ay naku, talaga namang nakaka inggit ang mga Mommies na preggy ngayon! sana makahabol din ako sa inyo. I’ve yet to visit my OB-Gyne though. dapat talaga magpa-consult na rin ako. it’s been years since I last visited. bad ko noh?
we definitely want a baby sister/brother for Nico. I can’t wait to see the Little Kuya doting and caring for the new baby. perhaps, in His perfect time, He will blessed us with another addition. babalitaan agad kita sa mga developments. heehee.
take care always Mare. Nonoy and I are praying for your happy and safe and healthy pregnancy and delivery. regards to Pareng Jerson, Patricia and Paulo.
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